If You Are Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
but I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
and I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tells me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do i dream of you as my boy?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I’m praying you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it , I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tells me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it,
I dont understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tells me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?”
Dia n smua yg terjadi selama ini bikin g bener2 bingung… g jadi penasaran apa si yg sebenernya uda TUHAN rencanain buat g??
knapa klo dia bukan buat g justru ada banyak kebetulan yg mempertemukan kita lagi? terutama setelah dia putus dari mantannya??
knapa klo dia bukan buat g justru TUHAN bikin g bingung setengah mati??
knapa hatiku justru memilih orang yg membuatku bener2 berada di situasi yg ga enak alias gajebo gini?? kenapa?? kenapa?? T_T
kayanya ada banyak kenapa di dalam hidupku sejak dia muncul….. mulai dari kenapa aku mesti ketemu ma dia?, kenapa dia mesti dah terikat?, kenapa hatiku ga bs pindah dari dia walo aku tau dia dah punya cewe?, kenapa hatiku ikut2an sedih n nangis wktu tau betapa sakit hatinya wktu dia putus ma cewenya?, kenapa g ngerasa terpanggil buat nyembuhin hatinya yg luka? kenapa g ga tinggalin dia aja saat itu juga n cari seseorang yg bener2 sayang k g?, kenapa g ga suka ngeliat dia terus2an bohongin dirinya sendiri?, kenapa g merasa terpanggil buat bikin dia bisa jadi dirinya sendiri lagi?, kenapa g ngerasa seneng walo cm ngeliat senyuman dia?, kenapa g slalu pengen ada di deketnya?, knapa cuma dia yg bisa ada di hati g padahal g ga tau gimana perasan dia ke g?, kenapa g ga perna berenti perhatiin dia ampe g sendiri ngerasa bener2 cape?, kenapa cuma baca sms dia ato denger suara dia di telpon aja bikin g seneng baget? kenapa??? kenapa??? fiuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………….
G tau g ga berhak apa2 atas dirinya n g jg ga terlalu berharap banyak dari dia… tp g ga bs ngendaliin perasaan g yg makin hari makin kuat ke dia….. g sayang banget ma dia… seolah dia yg slama ini g tunggu2 di dalem hidup g yg hampa…….. sampe2 g ga peduli lagi ma yg laennya. sampe2 g uda ngerasa puas n bahagia tiap ngeliat dia ketawa ato senyum doang……
Dia bikin g untuk pertama kalinya berani terang2an ngasi perhatian ke seseorang sampe segitunya… dia bikin g punya keberanian buat ngelakuin smua yg slama hidup g ga perna g lakuin… dia bikin hidup g lebi berwarna dengan kegembiraan, kekesalan, kesedihan…….
TUHAN plis banget… kasi tau aku… bantu aku… apa si yg msti aku lakuin?? apa, TUHAN??
