Long Journey to Find The Brightest Star

And I Found it nearly at the end of October… ^0^v

hoahhhhmmmmmm….. i’m so sleepy but why i can’t go to sleep??? this is so strange, isn’t it?? huehuehue……

This time i realize that everybody in my side is a good person… but…. there’s still but of course… but… when i fancy with them….. at that moment i feel that they’re a bad person… lol….

This morning, when i put my status on YM, everyone ask me the same question… hahahaha…. but i’m so glad…. because i know they’re care with me… ^0^

This morning, i’m also chat with C….. someone in my past, my rainbow…. and i realize one thing again…… he’s happy right now although he has lots of thing to do sama like me…… huehue…. that’s good, boy!!! keep smiling…. hahahaha……

And…. one more thing that i realize this day is….. never fall in love with your friends….. cause when he/she didn’t feel the same like u… he/she would’nt be our friend again…. and in my opinion, that’s really2 ridiculous……

Right now, i still dunno what i have to do with myself so that i can smile again, but i’ll always try…. try to smile again…….. it’s hard to do….. T_________T why??? dunno….. maybe he’d hurt me so bad that i can’t believe again in love……… just like Ming Zhen had said to me…… i’ll walk slowly until the right person came into my life and make me smile and believe in love again….. i’ll walk slowly until my star came towards me……… ^0^ and i’ll try to smile again…… although it’s hard, i believe that nothing is impossible in this world if we wanna try……….

For my “mami”……… love is hard…….. love makes we smile, cry, sad, happy in the same time…. but love also make us braver to face the world……… love make us grow…….. love make us know that there’s nothing is more great than it………. face ur love and find out what can and should you do with him………. gud luck, mami…. ^0^v

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yep… hiks… finally this is happen again to me….. huehuehue…. how can it be??? dunno….. aaaaa…. i really2 hate this……… hiksss……….. why??? am i too tired with everything so this is happen to me?? dunno….. but i think this is because my heart’s been broken again…….. fiuhhhhhhhhh………. now i really2 don’t know how to be strong again after all of this….. but 1 thing that i know…. i can’t smile again…. my happiness is gone…. fiuhhhhhhhh……….. Ming Zhen said to me that i have to forget all of that… and make my smile back again…….. he said that he knew i’ve lost my smile….. hiks…….. but i really2 dunno how to smile again…… somebody, help me plissss……… i don’t wanna be like this….. i wanna be myself…. a girl filled with smile and happiness…..