Long Journey to Find The Brightest Star

fiuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………… blakangan ne kq rasa2nya g sibuk mulu y?? mentang2 ST nya dah mo mule neh… huehue………

banyak bgt brita yg bikin g kaget blakangan ni…… ampe2 g ga sempet ngeblog lage neh…….. fiuhhhhhhhhhhh……………….

apa y contohnya?? hmmmmm……… itu…….. kmaren malem g di ym ma mami…. trus mami bilang kita?!?!?! g x maksudnya itu……… g msti cari snack buat tar STnya…… dengan waktu yang sangat2 singkat skale………. (” _ _)

apa lagi ya??? hmmmmm….. o iya….. g br2 ni menyadari sesuatu…… ternyata ada hal di dunia ini yang memang tak bisa terjadi sesuai dengan keinginan kita, namun justru hal itu menjadi hal yang paling indah di dalam hidup kita……..
Kmaren g nyadar sesuatu…… kalo pun akirnya nanti…… kalo lho ya……. kalo C akirnya nganggep g lbi dari sekedar temen…… kalo lho ya……… g yg giliran ga mao…… eits…. jgn bilang g geer ato terlalu sombong dulu ya…. g cm ga mau keilangan sosok dia yg sbagai temenku…….. temen yg selalu butuh bantuanku…… halah…….. kegeeran lo…… (” _ _)
G juga sadar kalo aku bener2 seneeeeeeeeeeeeeeenggggggggggg skale punya temen kaya dia….. smile, C…….. smile…….. smile 4 us…….. ^0^v

duhhhhhhhh…….. ribet lah pk bhs inggris…… dpt complain bnyk org lg blognya… T__________T mn dah susah2 mikirin kata2nya…… hiks….. ga da ngehargain bgt se itu org???? huaaaaaaaaa……..

y sudahlah……. kembali ke bhs indo aja dah….. hahahahaha……..

Hari ni……… y bgitulah……… g masi sakit neh……….. hiksssssssssss……………… stelah demamnya berhenti…. muncul batuk……… batuk blum brenti…… datanglah pilek…….. (” _ _) gede dah…… hikssssssss…………. T_____________T

Ngomong apaan lagi ya???? hmmmmmmmmm………. kmaren2 wktu g dengerin lagunya Melly Goeslaw yg judulnya apaan y?? cinta bukan sih…….. itu lho yg ada baitnya yg gini nih…… “cintai dia yang mencintaiku” sempet si g kepikiran gitu…… knapa g msti repot2 sayang sama seseorang yg ga sayang ma g??? tapi kmaren g sadar kalo g lakuin itu, itu tandanya g boongin diri g sendiri n g nyakitin org yg sayang ke g… itu bkn hal yg baik….

O iya g lupa…….. blakangan si R mule ngajakin g chat lg n kirim sms ga penting k hp g, tp y g ladenin pas g mau aja… hahahaha…. soalnya gmn y?? there’s something’s change in my heart…. mungkin dulu g sempet sayang sama dia, tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii…………………….. tapiiiiiiiiiii……… hatiku bukan lagi untuknya…………. hatiku sudah berpaling darinya…….. mungkin ini bukan salah siapa2, hanya saja g ngerasa bersyukur bangeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttt…….. g bersyukur karna akirnya bisa lepas dari smua itu….. smua yg menguras air mata dan tenaga g…… makasi buat semuanya…….. hope u’ll be ok…… gud luck…..

N skarang ni…… g bakalan terus jalan lurus…… sperti kata Ming Zhen…… jalan pelan2 lurus ke depan….. ^0^
G yakin dengan smua temen2 yg ada di sisi g, g bs jadi g yg dulu lagi…….. n senyuman g bs balik lagi……….. ^0^

Thx 4 everything GOD!!! u r really2 the best in my life…………. ^0^

hoahhhhmmmmmm….. i’m so sleepy but why i can’t go to sleep??? this is so strange, isn’t it?? huehuehue……

This time i realize that everybody in my side is a good person… but…. there’s still but of course… but… when i fancy with them….. at that moment i feel that they’re a bad person… lol….

This morning, when i put my status on YM, everyone ask me the same question… hahahaha…. but i’m so glad…. because i know they’re care with me… ^0^

This morning, i’m also chat with C….. someone in my past, my rainbow…. and i realize one thing again…… he’s happy right now although he has lots of thing to do sama like me…… huehue…. that’s good, boy!!! keep smiling…. hahahaha……

And…. one more thing that i realize this day is….. never fall in love with your friends….. cause when he/she didn’t feel the same like u… he/she would’nt be our friend again…. and in my opinion, that’s really2 ridiculous……

Right now, i still dunno what i have to do with myself so that i can smile again, but i’ll always try…. try to smile again…….. it’s hard to do….. T_________T why??? dunno….. maybe he’d hurt me so bad that i can’t believe again in love……… just like Ming Zhen had said to me…… i’ll walk slowly until the right person came into my life and make me smile and believe in love again….. i’ll walk slowly until my star came towards me……… ^0^ and i’ll try to smile again…… although it’s hard, i believe that nothing is impossible in this world if we wanna try……….

For my “mami”……… love is hard…….. love makes we smile, cry, sad, happy in the same time…. but love also make us braver to face the world……… love make us grow…….. love make us know that there’s nothing is more great than it………. face ur love and find out what can and should you do with him………. gud luck, mami…. ^0^v

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yep… hiks… finally this is happen again to me….. huehuehue…. how can it be??? dunno….. aaaaa…. i really2 hate this……… hiksss……….. why??? am i too tired with everything so this is happen to me?? dunno….. but i think this is because my heart’s been broken again…….. fiuhhhhhhhhh………. now i really2 don’t know how to be strong again after all of this….. but 1 thing that i know…. i can’t smile again…. my happiness is gone…. fiuhhhhhhhh……….. Ming Zhen said to me that i have to forget all of that… and make my smile back again…….. he said that he knew i’ve lost my smile….. hiks…….. but i really2 dunno how to smile again…… somebody, help me plissss……… i don’t wanna be like this….. i wanna be myself…. a girl filled with smile and happiness…..

Have you ever feel really2 alone in the dark that no one come to walk with you in your long-long journey and you feel really2 confuse that you think that dissapear is the best solution??

I have….

I dunno why, but everytime my heart’s been broken by a boy, i feel that i am really2 stupid… why did i always choose the wrong boy?? why??? why i have to feel this sadness and why did my heart really2 hurt because of the wrong boy??

But, i finally knew that i must continue my journey all by myself…. there’s still no one who stay in my side…. coz the world is spinning all the time…… but it’s ok…. i still have lots of friends who’ll came towards me as soon as possible whenever i need them…… thx, friends…… ^0^

This time, i’m trying to write my blog in english so forgive me if i make mistakes ^0^v…….. i also wanna forget everything about every boy who’ve came into my life, made me fall in luv, and then finally made my mind filled with confuseness, sadness, and also tears…… i don’t wanna be like that anymore…. just like Hansun’ve said to me…. i wanna have lots of friends right now…. coz friends is always in your side when everyone else leave you alone………

I also believe that everything, every moment, every experiences in my life makes me know that everything is not the same like what we’ve imagined….. and there’s no happily ever after story…. there’s always tears in our life, but that makes us brave to face and solve problems in our life… so, right now… no more judge the book by it’s cover….

Maybe i feel a little scared to fall in love again because of everything that had happened in my love story, but…….. just like a normal girl….. i will wait till the right guy came into my life…..

————- Girls———————————–
———are like apples———————–
——-on trees. The best ones—————-
——are at the top of the tree.—————
—–The boys dont want to reach————
—–for the good ones because they ——-
—are afraid of falling and getting hurt.—-
—Instead, they just get the rotten apples–
—from the ground that aren’t as good, —–
—but easy. So the apples at the top think—
—something is wrong with them, when in—-
—reality, they’re amazing. They just——–
—-have to wait for the right boy to———
——– come along, the one who’s————-
————- brave enough to————————
——————climb all———————————
—————— the way——————————-
——————to the top—————————-
—————– of the tree.——————————-
—————-and pick them——————